Its just complicated!

Haizzzzz.......I try not to think about it but it really, really does annoy me or should i say irritate me. I'm trying to calm myself down and i thought when school starts, things could cool down abit. But i thought wrong. Hmmmm....my parents has been trying to calm me too, everyone around me has tried calming me down but every time i try to calm down and not think of some things it starts all over again. I start to get angry and feel sad and i get stressed myself.

My parents have been doing a good job advising me take things slow but......how the fuck can i take things slow if everything is rushing up to me? The teachers are still doing nothing about it and I'm just so angry about that fact. They want to take in students but they never think how the students are going to make their way through. No wonder alot of students kill themselves. Its like what tau.......you donno 1+1, the teacher is already asking what is 2*2. Sial uh!!!!!!How can this be sial.....The moment i start reading.....the words start playing around in my head. Should i be understanding it or should i be memorizing it sial? Hmmm....This suck! School sucks! I thought when i get school life could be alot better.....Fucking Shit....!!!! I need to start work soon, I'm suppose to start work today but how can i start work if i myself ain't yet stable?

Anyways, my friend offered me a job and i guess i will change my job. It's back to night life for me.....i earn more so why not right, and I'll be working on weekends so it wouldn't be that difficult and it wouldn't clash with school that much. If I'm free tomorrow then i can go to the work place tomorrow and start the work straight away. All i need to do is stablise myself and everything will be cool. IN TERMS OF MONEY AND LIFE. Hmmmm.........