So my blog slips away and unnoticed, rarely being updated and not being read anymore.

Will i be a good partner? Am i a good partner? I think to myself.

My dearly, as time goes by, my love for you grows stronger and stronger. I can feel it growing in me. As hours go by, i miss you even faster. I can never get enough of you. I can never get enough of your love and i cant stop thinking of you. The warmth that you give me everytime you're by my side and the feeling of my heart beat beating fast everytime you're around me.

This me can never make someone's heart satisfied eventhough i try. I ask myself, am i not trying hard enough. I do want to make you happy. I do want to make you smile and laugh. I want to be a good partner that can give you what you want. Is it that hard for me? I think to myself every now and then afraid of losing you, where is our stand for the both of us? I don't want to be in the stage of losing you. I don't want to be thinking of that. I just don't want you to be far away from me.

Let us grow, Let us be strong. It takes time. I apprreciate you. Like I've said before, you are 1 of the best things that has happened to me in my life, and I don't want that to be taken away. You are my friend, you are my love, and this small heart of mine loves you greatly but it needs strength and support from the other side.

You are tired. I understand. Thats's why you're always grumpy and cranky. Its ok. Hang in thr. Breathe my dear. No matter how pissed I get with your tired behaviour, Ive never hated you, cos i know you're not yourself. I know that someday your real self will be unleashed. It takes time and patience my dear, thats what I'm here for. Not only to love you, but to also help you with what ever things that you go through.

We are beautiful together. If only both of us have the extra strength to always cheer each other up.

Is this the stage where the time comes for me to let go and let her free? Is it repeating in my life? To let free the other so that she can explore the world and be her self. Cos that feeling somehow rather comes and distracts me. The fear of letting someone you love go. Whether she wants to explore or that she has no feelings for me anymore jus fears me. It makes me shivver and that's when I start thinking and wondering alot cos that's when my heart is unsure. Ayul is unsure.

Its her choice and i have no right to stop. Im jus a guy living life to the simplest it can be. He doesnt ask for much, he doesnt seek too much, but the world makes things complicated. How simple things turn to problems and it affects you. It just saddens me, will i have to leave her so she can seek happiness?

My dear sarah, I love you and I'm missing you. My heart's to weak to let you go, but if i have to then I've got no choice. You're an angel to me, cos you've blissed my life with love and joy. I appreaciate it.