Everything

Find me here

And speak to me

I want to feel you

I need to hear you

You are the light

That's leading me

To the place

Where I find peace again

You are the strength

That keeps me walking

You are the hope

That keeps me trusting

You are the light to my soul

You are my purpose

You're everything

And how can

I stand here with You

And not be moved by You?

Would you tell me how could it be

Any better than this?

You calm the storm

And You give me rest

You hold me in your hand

You won't let me fall

You still my heart

And You take my breath away

Would You take me in?

Take me deeper now

And how can I stand here with

YouAnd not be moved by You?

Would you tell me how could it be

Any better than this?

'Cause You're all I want

You're all I need

You're everything

Everything

Would you tell me how could it be

Any better than this?

Hey dudu, Im sorry abput the words I said earlier on. I really am. And i didn't mean to say them to hurt you. We just quarreled and i bloged it out, I was emotionally angry. And that's why Its there. But I don't mean them. You know that rite? You know that I love you and I wouldn't wanna hurt you. Its good that you know la and you're willing to change. And I have to change to, to give you some space to breath. Hmm, I love you.

Goodnight and Go

Still breathing

Love you Dudu

~~~~Weeeeeeeeeee~~~~

Here I am typing this out and its almost 4am in the morning. As usual I can't sleep. Its not a disorder yet, its just this night habit of mine that I can't sleep to early at night.

There goes friday and its saturday. Camp starts on tuesday and deary starts work this monday. The designer job havent called her yet so she's gonna do this telemarketer job only for a week earning 10 bucks per hour. Is that good or what??? Well, I thought I could spend time with her on monday, which is a day before camp, like the usuals but guess I thought wrong cos her work starts on Monday. Well, Like she said, Who's gonna pay her 10 bucks per hour if she comes to meet me. Anyway I've been spending alot of time with her, which was the whole of this week. Everyday.....and on most days we end up quarrelling especially the gg home part. Hmm.....

Its just her. The crankyness, groggyness and the out of a sudden she gets irritated. Can't blame her, its just her......and its tiering to always give in and lose out to her cos I wanna have fun and I want her to smile and talk. That's what I have to do I guess to make her happy. All this for love. Like I said before, just don't you dare break my heart.

Had a talk with her just now when we were having our dinner. About the old times with her, about how we started liking each other and stuff. She told me, I am like a brother to her, A best freind but yet a good lover. Guessed she really meant it.

Its just me that's thinking too much and feeling all this insecurities, but I'm feeling better now, its just her in need of time and space for herself and sm "friends". Can't blame her agian. She has a life and should have her life, cos I'm not the only 1 who should be too revovled around her cos we're best freinds, special freinds she proclaims. All I can say to us is all the best and just don't give up and lose faith cos we love each other alot and its just age and some other shit that's stopping us from being together.

This word "commitment"......hmm, guess she's not ready for that yet. Gave her directions already and since she knows it already all she wants now is some space to dicover herself and her way of mixing around with others.

Just to remind you again.

I love you, and Im asking simple things from you which are to appreciate me, to love me back and not to break my heart.

Cos if you do, you know what will happen to me cos Im not as strong as you think I am, and if you don't wanna see me fall, just don't push me away and don't break that small precious heart of mine. Im not being emotional or "sentimental" (the word she uses to describe me) its facts about me.

Well, Im hungry now and Ive said sorry and explained to you the reasons to our quarrell just now, go think about it.......and since you know how you are, that meaningless attitude of yours, go change yourself and be a better girl for someone to love, and for yourself to understand.

Im gonna go cook my prata, and you're having your nice slp.

Goodnight and go

A random Idea

Enough of bumming for me! Briefing for the 1st camp after a long time i tomorrow! Weeeeee!!!!!!
So its gonna be super early at punggol and after that Im gonna be accompanying Sarah for her job interview. Wish her all the best for her awesome job if she gets it, cos its a stepping stone for her in future. She's gonna be doing this designing shit for makan sutra or smthing la. So all the best babe!

As for me, yea a few camps and earn big money, save up and wait for another awesome holiday at the end of June! Krabi here I come to your nice beach to have fun at your party!!! Wooooo!!!!!
But its gonna be back to back shit and Im still thinking how Im gonna survive without meeting sarah for a few days. Geez, I love her......and Im gonna like miss her badly!

Well here I am at pasir ris, at this random Online shop doing this cos Im waiting for sarah to finish her tuition. So yea......tts all for now!

How ~Dumb~?

So Sentosa was great! Its been a long time since the last time i had great fun and I tire myself that much. Ive lost all my energy and the last few bits are for to let it out here.
It was like, Rugby, wrestling, captain's ball, dodge ball, and jus the plain swim and all that made it awesome! And my bodies aching!!!!!!!

And ya! I managed to wake up super early and went over to sarah's and did the cooking. BUT!!!!!!!! You know what????? On the way to Sentosa, while in the train, I was so so engrossed in this 1 song, listening to it and sarah telling me the meanings to those complicated words, and ya when it was time to alight, I forgot the freaking god damn food in the train, and I didn't realise that till I was at Harbour Front. Hmmmph! How foolish can i be? Kao, forgetful shit, and when I told Sarah that i had forgotten it, she didn't know how to react. Heh! It was more like angry , but can't be angry cos it wasn't on purpose and I didn't know how to react myself, I was like laughing it out the whole time! Kao!!!! How dumb! 1 of the foolish days for me.

Later part of the day sucked abit, wasted too much time on where to eat after sentosa, and at last we went to vivo and I GOT MY BAN MIAN!!!!!!! The coolest, nicest but smelliest food you can find! Serious! Trust me! ITS SUPER NICE, and ya me and sarah jus had to quarrell after that, ending the day like shit. Hate it! I don't know what was the quarrell all about, how it started and why it happened, cos she jus started it, and I can never win uh! I can never be angry or sad or upset cos then she'd be the one in return and I'd be the one going after her to make her smile.

Hmmph!!!!! WHy? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why sarah?

Its the end of April and woah, and hell yea what a month? Ive been bumming the whole month! Not earning a single cent but instead spending my money cos im like going out every single day!

Going to sentosa tmorrow to chill at the beach with some friends. Hope its gonna be fun! Im gonna have to leave hs early cos i have to head to sarah's to cook sm food to bring over cos everyone's bringing something. So yea!

I don't know whether its me or its my heart or whether its sarah. Things change and time has changed it. I jus don't know anymore, Im like lost but not lost.

Fuck all this la, Im hanging on and being patient. But smtimes she jus acts weird. And it shocks me or shld i say it surprises me. I don't know how to react sial. Cibai!

Now Im all pissed!

Go to slp then.