Wat ever la!!!!

Yey! So i passed my bike prac...and so it goes on to another....I'll be doing it today...Prac 3......Again...many many hopes to pass......Well i think this will be my last lesson till next month because i'm out of money!! haha......and it's not that i don't have anymore money my dear friend..I just don't have anymore money to continue with my bike lessons. So it's ok. I help you, you help me...Ok...no need to worry so much bout me. Haha....I know, i know i am nice and all, but yeah.....

So yeah, a long day for me today, i'm suppose to finish at 5 but my bike prac will save me i can go home early. Ezad....why so stress sia? Relaxs man.....you're only 18 and it's still a long way to 19 or even 20. So stop thinking too much of the present la. I know it's good to plan but yeah, give it a break dude! Before i start you better stop. Ngemhet Ngempet......just remember that....You are jus stressing yourself. I mean cum on uh...CHill....aite.

Hmmm......i still havent got the attachment yet, cos the work places i chose wanted only "CHINESE" people who can speak "MANDARIN".......all i can say that you people are fucking Racists bastards! Go and fuck yourself and i swear your company won't last long you smelly people wiping your asses with tissue paper.....with those stupid small eyes of yours unable to open and see what i'm capable of doing. It doesn't mean i can't speak "MANDARIN" i can't do your fucking work cos my classmate whom was chosen, who is an "ABENG" is just going to serve customers while i can do your ticketing and reservations for you! I studied the god damn module and i came for that lesson cos it can bring me somewhere and all you say to me is, you don't want me is because i can't speak "MANDARIN". FUCK LA!

Ah.....let me rest in peace.....so people....now do you know why i want to migrate? Yes....because of this. How long do you want to live in a country where they look at your skin and just judge you of what you are uncapable of? HA? HA? I'm not talkin bullshit here....One day...insyallah if i have the money...I will migrate.....surrounded by this kind of bastards....i want my children to live in a different world where they don't have to ask me, isn't this a malay country? Why is there so many chinese? HAHAHA! talking crap again.HAizzzz......

Blargh

The days seem to pass by very fast this days. I don't know whether it's me or it's reality. It's almost the end of January and this month was quick and i was mostly busy i guess. So i'm waiting for this week to pass then i'm going to Ubin again to enjoy the darkness, surrounding and the nature. Yes....the wonderful stars....

So i'm in class now not studying cos my teacher ain't here, and i believe there will be no PE like always. So i think i'm going hm soon. I have my Bike prac later so i should rest at home. Haha. Yeah, i failed the 1st time i did it, why? Because i never check blind spot da......Haiya...what a waste. So, many, many, many hopes for me to pass later.

Can get no better

So im going for my attchment soon......haizzz.... I'l be very very busy this time. Gonna be working office hours i don't know where and it should atleast be 5 days a week. So yeah i really have to start saving cos all that i've planned how to save my money isn't gonna happen. So its gonna be the hard and slow way..... Doing my attachment and i'm still gonna work part-time. Cos if i don't i won't be able to save it. Yeah, yeah....what ever....I know i'm a workaholic....but it's for my own good, Right? Right? It's not that i waste my money on useless things like going clubbing or on drugs?

So atleast 2 more weeks of school then go for my attachment. At the same time all my money going to my licence and then the rest of my money is going to my bank. All that money is for april when i go for my backpacking trip to Thailand and for my bike. So it's just this 2. Enough of shopping and buying things cos that can all wait till april. I'll shop till i can't anymore. Hahaha...

So this friday is my next prac. Prac 2....then i have work....saturday i'm going to ubin then i have work....Sunday i'm not sure. My friend asked me out...So it's not confirmed yet. Today i have work at 10.....haizz.....And not forgetting i have my fitness test this friday.....if i don't pass i won't get my cert...per jerr......ALa....and i haven't done my project......KHAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bile nak buat project SATAN!!!!!! Asik kluar ngan pompuan jerrr!!!!

JB Madness

It's was just like any normal trip to Johor, simple but I had alot of fun. I went our with my dear friend today, o and yeah, ezad tagged along. Sorry khai, i forgot to call you along but if i were to call you, you would be with your friend.....Da ader pompuan pe??

So yeah...while waiting for ezad i bought pretzels. HAHA, yummy. I bought 2 pretzels while waiting and another 2b4 watching movie. Its freaking delicious uh! Where can you get delicious pretzels for only $1.45? The plan was to get kropok lekor but i totally forgot about it. NYAH HAH! So the next time i go there buy 1st so if i forget atleast i get to eat again.

Haha, and yes....it was sweet of my dear friend to actually have planned to get me this vans shoe. Which i had no idea of......but didn't buy because of my fickleness.....didn't know what to get. So we ate, walk around in circles thanks to ezad and end up watching this grusome movie "The Wig". HAIYA! It was so grusome uh. You can actually vomitthere uh while watching. Wait.....someone did go and vomit while watching....i wonder who..... :p hmmm....

So when's the next time? Hmm...b4 Ubin I guess.....yeah...need to get supplies b4 we go...

Out of randomness......(BAH!)

All For Believing

We were friends,

we became lovers, & now

we are just aqquientences.

Always wanting to know how you are and what's in your mind.

I would just end up calling you.

Tell me again,

what we are and where we stand?

I've never really understood you.

To me you are my lover &

you are my best friend.

But now we have gone our seperate ways.

We had plans that were unbreakable,

I thought we were unbreakable,

but both out hearts broke

Cos nothing good lasts forever.

I'm living in a world surrounded by black and white.

Something is missing you.

Maybe someday you'll wake up from your deep sleep,

and you'll start finding or following you heart.

You know i'd die to know you love me.

Is there someone missing me?

Knowing you don't care feels like a thousand needles piercing my heart,

living without you makes my world turn upside down.

How long will it take us to be undone?

Pull back the sheild between us,

Drop your defences and come into my arms.

I'm all for believing,

If you can reveal the true colours within.

I know you blanket your mind,

so much that i am blind.

But i see you painted our soul into your guard.

I need to know just how you feel, to comfort you.

Need to find the key to let me into your heart,

to find your soul.

You say you'll be there to hold, and the faith grows old,

and life turns cold.

So if you're cold i will stay and maybe fate will guide the way.

I beleive in what i see and

we were meant to be.

Just beleive

Just beleive in me......

..........its 6:24a.m

I reached home around 4:15am and i called a friend straight away.....chatted with her for awhile and we planned to sleep cos we're going out today. We're gonna have alot of fun today so we need to rest....

So ya, laid on my bed, and as usual listened to some music before i go to sleep....I fell asleep, and suddenly after 10 mins of peace i woke up with a shock. (sigh) why? I wondered to myself. And all of a sudden flashbacks and memories came and hit me hard. Haizz......why now. So here i am, typing this out......can't sleep but sleepy on the brain. I hate it when this thing happens sia. Tsk! Sial uh! Rimas gileer uh....donno what my heart wants. It wants to feel sad, happy and even excited. I donno....when it suddenly cam i felt like bursting all my tears out, but sometimes i can't any more. I donno why. Till now. Isn't it kind of wierd? Haizzz......

Am i suppose to miss that person? Should i go back? Ah! FUCK IT LA! It's useless.....i am so far away and i'm standing up straight....why must this shit have to happen to me now? FUCK! Fuck all the questions that's playing around in my mind.....eeee irritating gileer sial.....I can seriously go on with all my swearing......haizzzz.....

I'm so excited uh............

Its 2a.m and i can barely type. i'm so sleepy already. I've been sleepy since i was at skool just now. I actually selpt at the canteen table sey jus now....Haiyah, so embaracing...

I left skool quite early cos i had my bike practical.

APE DIA?
KAU DA START AMIK LESEN?
DA LA!
WEEEEEEEE!

Eh, kau.....I'm so excited sey.....it was fun uh just now..Da lame sey tak naik. But everything my friend taught me last time came as useful notes. Even though it was raining it was fun...Being wet and riding the bike at the same time. The instructors were supuer duper nice uh...As long as i don't kena the Indian guy with the thick long Misai, its oooooooookay with me. Haha

So yeah, there were some people there whom i already knew and ezad and me made some new freinds. haha, From a simple straight line start to a mini circuit. Then playing with gear 2. Gerek kan?

Hey, hope the next time you can be extra carefull.....Don't be scared to release the clutch.....throttle takmo too many....ahahah. Won't mansion wat happen cos it was just you.....Hey, but it was cool uh... I turned my head and you were already running...Then look again, i was like eh? Hmmmm, okay.

So yeah, my next prac will be on monday at 1640 hrs....And i hope it will be so much better. Wait, wait, the helmet freaking smelly sia......I know people always bring their own helmet but to me tak cool gileer uh. Motor blum ader, nak ngade2 bawak helmet. Sudah la! But the helmet bau....Hahahaha.....complain eh... I havent done the theory yet...and ya! SHit! I havent done the medical thingy for NS sia.....Shit so gonna die uh......And i have skool projects to complete. Next wednesday i have to wear formal, ape sey....And my teacher will be treating us at seoul Garden.....Jadi la....

Oooo yeah, not forgetting...i wanna thank my dear friend for making tonite gerek....cool, windy and gerek uh. Pure randomness uh! ahaha, played on the swing and i could feel the cool breeze...wah! Tt's y i wanna go ubin.....jus hope it won't rain. Kk i think it's enough for now. I'm sleepy and i was typing nonsense.....BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oooooo yeah...

That's where i laid
Khai treating my wound
A view from the back
Jus pretending
Im jus too tired

Hmm......no wonder something was missing cos i forgot to mention tt i actually had my birthday bash at Malaysia after my expedition. It was at the hotel when the guys started it and i tell ya....My 18th bash was the worst i've ever had. Normally it would be a group of people hitting and kicking me uh but this time it was all about making fun of me....Haizzzz, guys, guys....nothing better to do, but something stupid which is fun to guys.

The shitty thing about it is i actually knew that they were gonna do it to me but i didn't know when. That was the question. When? Haha. Watching this hindi movie and suddenly some guy jus grabbed me from behind and pushed me to the floor so everyone could have a piece of me. Struggled and struggled it took them about 20 mins to pin me down. Imagine........8 people pinning you down and, me after an exhausting expedition trying to struggle my way out. Biting and spitting is all i could do to them. I was so exhausted till i jus had to give up and tell them "do what ever you want to do to me, cos i'm tired and i want this to be over and done with".

So yeah, they did......they taped my legs and hands so i couldn't move even though after giving up, but i guess, it was jus for the fun of it.....they stripped me naked and then they painted my toe nails in ugly green colour just because i like greentea....haha....and they bought food colouring and vineger jus to paint my hold body. From head to toe they poured the colours and the vineger to make me smell bad.....I guess they're jus jealous that i don't have body odours like them...HAHAHA.....so yeah they made me into an art piece, a combination of colours and with all their signatures behind my back.....

I couldn't even get up uh.....i was jus too tired and i was like shivering the whole time washing myself up.....I let all the food i had in me out 1st b4 i took the shower......Ha....my friends jus love me too much....after making me suffer all that, they got so worried when i was vomitting...hahahaha.... had an abrasion on my elbow and i had super glue stuck to my thigh which made it a wound....thanks to khai with all the wrap....ahaha. I had a bloody headache and i couldn't even smoke my stick properly cos i was too tired....haizzzz...YOU GUYS ARE SO GONNA GET IT WHEN IT"S YOUR BDAY.......

Wat a day.......

Staring away in the train....going to skool feeling sleepy...Haizzz.....Listening to my music it brought me away, away to some place so far and yeah it was nice dreaming. The moment i knew.....someone woke me up when it was at Jurung East interchange.......Haiya, so paiseh and wat a good start i had, darn! KANTOI AH! And when i woke up, i realised it was a lady....alahai....lagi kantoi.....whether it was buruk or not, i didn't know uh.....A LADY WAKING ME UP UH! Shits.....

So wat did i do in skool today? Nothing! ITE lame sey......i had a 2 hours break uh, nothing to do untill khai came, atleast had some fags to smoke....khekahkaheka. Serious, everytime this happens everyone will be like brain dead uh, nothing to do.....no wonder alot of ITE students become dumber....da dumb, and when things like this happen, ppl will jus go home and end up not doing and gaining anything in skool.......

Hey.....so where was i thinking.....hmmmm.....oooo ya! I wanna go to Pulau Ubin at the end of this month......maybe jus a 2 day trip...just a hike up to the summit and spend a nite there...anyone interested, you're welcomed to join me....jus tell me k

Ala..............

I just had to work during new year.....haiya!!! And i missed alot of fun with my frens.....this year's new year....I'm so not gonna work unless they pay me like $15 an hour....ahahah other than tt no way i'm gonna work. Im not gonna miss any fire works this year...haha.

Well......we went to town yesterday and i met my dear fren thr. Ate and we walked all the way. They actually sent me to work...khekhekeh thanks buddies...and they went to esplanade to have fun....ala.....

It was so busy at work and i didn't even have time to shout out the coundown. I didn't even have time to smoke.....tt's how busy it was and it was suppose to finish at 4 which was dragged all the till 5. HAH! Thanks to Sheikh Haikal and crew! Blahg......and i just had walk out, cos i didn't give a damn anymore.....Took a cab and met my frens and esplanade. Atleast i had fun thr even though it was for a short while..... Thanks anyway.....