The Last Time I'm Posting For 2005

Hello everyone......I'm getting well soon and my dear friend is getting sick....Anyway thanks for that time and i guess you're sick cos of me....But i warned her and she still......that's y, degil.....so anyway. I'm working today uh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's been 2 years......I have been working on new year for the past 2 years while everyone is having fun....Its ok.....

So yeah, I'm meeting my buddies later, chill then work then i think ill be meeting them again...i hope......aaaaaaahhhhhhh.....2005 is over! Its getting faster and faster everytime. Time passes by so fast sey nowadays......

I guess tt's all for 2005, closing my book....and opening a new chapter in life next year.... :) With alot more things to come my way, alot more things to learn and experience and more ppl to meet along the way.... a stronger me everytime.....3 cheers for TEAM!

Jus a lil bit to show

Jus so tired
The wonderful view at the summit
Us at the summit
AH!!!!EEE!!!
That's us

WE CAME, WE SAW AND WE CONQUERED....

Like I said....I am going to update my blog after i get my pics.....so yeah. I've got my pics and so it goes.....

1st of all.....I want to thank everyone who made this expedition succesful. To TEAM and to the guys who were with us.... For those of you who know, this is our 1st Independent expedition overseas and it wasn't easy organising it. That's why I really want to thank all of you who gave us their support.

Hmmmm..........Truthly speaking I wasnt't ready for the expedition myself cos i thought it was going to be easy as plan and done the 1st time. But yeah! I thought wrong. From an average of a 2hrs hike It ended up to a 7hrs drama. With our ooo so heavy load on our backs causing us to slouch......the only thing tt helped us were the sticks we found tt we made into walking sticks then. It was the only thing tt supported us.

We were so behind time and we had no chance on reaching the summit b4 nite fall as planned. We just had to depend on our other senses and our lights to trek ourselves up. Pushing ourselves BEYOND OUR LIMITS we just continued and we had alot of pit stops along the way cos we really couldn't take it any longer. With the blood sucking creatures crawling around our legs to find a good spot, and with the cramps we had to endure i would proudly say we are night conquerers of Gunung Panti. Haha.

On and on we went without giving up....we just continued.....Motivating and pushing ourselves after 6 hrs, finally we reached the last check point to the summit, the vertical wall. 1 by 1 each of us climbed up the wall. Starting from khai followed by the rest. Rizal and i were the last. Rizal to support at the bottom and i on the wall to support each and every 1 of them. I seriously didn't noe wat was up tt wall cos i was wondering wat was taking them so long to just put their bags down and come back to help us. So then it was my turn and i was just to tired to clmb the wall with my load. Luckily khai came down to bring my bag up cos i was exhausted! So it was jus me and rizal with the logistics....step by step we pulled ourselves up and i just had to stop cos i couldnt breath anymore. Thanks to rizal for calming me down, we sat down and rested. Help wasn't thr for us yet so we took our time catching our breath and lighted a fag. The sense of accomplishment was near and i could feel every moment worth while as i climbed higher and higher. Few metres up, the rest came down to help us....it was great! Thanks guys! I really needed a hand.

The moment i stepped on flat ground i was so happy tt my heart couldn't believe, it beated so fast and i really felt like crying. Cos i myself couldn't believe tt i have reached the summit. Thanks Guys! Cheers. The view was amazing when the sun came out. Its was seriously worth every single minute we suffered down thr pushing ourselves. Woke up cos i was shivvering, it was cold, raining and we could hardly breath properly....We could see smoke coming out of our mouths.....coool eh?? Thr was mist surrounding us and when we looked over the cliff we could see clouds.....my gawd.....its really amazing uh...breathtaking, i jus can't describe it.....haizz....I'm melting now.

Trekking down was so much easier....the load was lighter cos we tried reducing it up b4 we climbed down. We left the beautiful place after lunch and i just told myself to hang in thr. I was leading the 2nd day expedition and i told myself to have lesser pit stops and trek at a faster pace.....and when we reached the river, we straight away dumped our bags and ran for water cos we didn't have any more water......it was cool and wow.....i could feel the water running down my throat....spent 10 mins jus refreshing myself thr, washing my face and just enjoying the sensation.

Continued and we finally reached the waterfall where we played around, took pics and just rendam in the water......cooling off and letting go of the tension in our body ah and not forgetting, we had a nice shower there.....at the running water....wah!!! After everything...we settled down and cook and had our camofire and our debrief and we just laid thr looking at a million stars......Haizzzz.....why are other countries so much nicer then my own......played stupid guessing games until i got irritated.....argghhhh!!!! Syarif, rizal and who ever.....AH!!!!!!!

Haizzzz.....alot to share but its gonna be to long to write...im tired...its already long now and if i continue...ah...its gonna be forever.....

Like the sands through the hour glass.....so are the days of our lives.......Hiazzz.....3 cheers to TEAM.

WAAAAAAAATAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

Hmmm....should i say i am recovering or should i say "lets pretend to be sick?", so some ppl could jus pamper me....ahahaha. Its fun uh...its not tt i get it all the time uh... hmm.....i will update the story on Kota Tinggi but i shan't do it it now cos my brain still can't think. All i can say is i reached hm on my bday at 7pm, feeling very sick and exhausted......went to swensens with my family to celebrate and went hm to sleep. Hmmm......after waking up, went to the clinic

with someone whom was kind enuf to bring me thr...khekehkehkhe.....

Haizzz.....wish it was still early and i wish i would still be hanging around somewhere..... when was the lasttime i spent time with you? Haiyo! So yeah...thanks alot...today was cool.....laughing...skipping arnd......and jus plain talkin......I miss those times with my dear friend too. HAHAHA! I'm saying as if my friend is long gone or should i say far away... But we're just busy donno buat ape uh sampai susah nak jumpe! HAHAHA..... Cos i still can't stop laughing bout the Minah tudong song....ahahaha, am i rite Sarah...ahahah...cool piece of trash...ahahha Laughing, giggling in the library...and then coming across a minah tudong girl at Cavana....OOppsss......And YA! Not forgetting the delicious Laksa i had at Cavana uh....emmmm....its been a long time since i had a delicious Laksa.....And it was with crispy chicken...kau.....sedap gileer uh...aahhahaha. I want it agian!

So yeah...starting my lame, boring life agian tmrw......its back to work.....thursday, friday and saturday and maybe sunday. And, maybe on monday i'll be gg to Sentosa to go for a job interview cos i'm damn bored with my work....AH!!!!!!!!!!!!! So its like a new year, a new working envirenment.... So now wat? Liscence uh!!!!! My december's pay is my liscence money and i really can't wait..... I want to get a sweater....a new t-shirt, ......ah and 2 new pair of shoes......I WANT! I REALLY WANT!

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Going crazy bout the stuff that i can't buy but holding on to the money that can buy me almost everything!!!! SHEEEESSSHHHH!!!! I'm OUtSZZZZ!!~~~>>>>

Was I Kiasu or Wat?

My god......i didn't know settling the logistics would be this tiring uh. Shoots man....Its a good thing Ezad was here to help me....We like cleared the whole shelf of maggi at NTUC....ahahaha same goes for the can food, ppl were like looking and staring at us. We were like seeking for attention man! HAHAH, they were like looking from head to toe.....cos it was all cleared by us... hmm...just hope its enuf...maybe it's more then enuf...I'm not really sure cos this is my 1st time organising and independent camp and i'm not really sure whether its to much or not.....trial an error then. Hmmm......and we actually brought back the trolley..ahahahaha. There was alot to carry uh so we decided to bring back the trolley and when i borught it hm my parents were lik " oi! wats with the trolley" "better put it back tmrw" ahahaha sheesh..Well a few more things to buy like water ans abit more stuff... so yeah, abit more shopping but i think i'll ask daddy to help me.....

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HELP!!!!!!!!!PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so gonna rot at home today.... Haizzz.....with a dolar in my pocket how am i gonna survive? Shit, and i'm like so hungry. So i'm going to use that $1 to buy my prata cos i haven't ate since yesterday. I haven't ate properly for the past few days. I've been eating maggi then going out then coming home without any food to eat. ANd i'm working later......AH!!!!!!

My next expedition is nearing. It's this 23rd and i can't wait. But i admit i am having some minor difficulty handling the logistics uh.... Shit.....But i really can't wait uh.... Hmm.....We're gonna take alot, lot, lot, of pics and i hope me and izad can really cum out with a good video clip.

"OUR EXPEDITION TO BT PANTI".....HAHAHA.

K i just finish pluckking my eyebrows. I was just trying, so ya.....I've done it. My sis did it for me....Wasn't as pain as ppl said it shld be. So yeah....

Wats happening now? I have the cruise briefing this monday, and i'll be doin the cuise project on tuesday then meet up with Sarah and go out. Wednesday i have to go to JB to buy the logistics then on thursday settle the things then meet up with the participant6s and distribute their rations.....I can't wait!!!!!!

So yeah....busy week for me......and wat a bday it will be. My Brunei friends came here to celebrate it but I'm not going to be with them. Haizzzz.....A bday in Malaysia.....Truly Asia....HAHAHAHAKZZZZ

Form My Heart I'm Letting It All Out

I guess I have found my source of easing myself. It’s writing it out and it really makes me feel so much better. It’s similar to letting it all out. I’m thankful that I’m not stupid to take drugs and endanger my life just to forget this pain. I admit I did it last time but it wouldn’t really endanger me that much. Sometimes I do laugh at myself for doing it last time. What did I do? Hahaha, I drank till my kidneys and heart couldn’t take it anymore. I did that for 2 months for your information. Didn’t really go home and I just sat down drinking 1 bottle after another. Wondering around like a lost sole. I’m thankful that god gave me a 2nd chance which happened all of a sudden. It just smacked me right at the head. Questions started playing around in my mind. Why am I doing this? Do I benefit anything? Yup, all of a sudden. And that’s how exactly I changed myself and my life.

Where am I now in life?

I’m proudly standing on my 2 feet studying Nitec in Tourism and planning to go for Higher Nitec In Hospitality and Tourism Management next year, Yup I’ve got it all planned. It’s a new and good start for me. At the same time I’m juggling my part-time job which is a server at coccolatte and being a freelance camp instructor. These are the sources for my money and my moving on. I know I say this all the time but I’m seriously proud of myself that I’m here right now standing up straight without any helping hands. It wasn’t easy for me being here; yup I have to repeat that again cos I’m proud that I was strong enough to go through all the tough stages of moving on and I’m still in fact moving on. Not struggling just trying to push myself so I wouldn’t be brought down easily if it happens to me again.

I have so many plans and so many things coming my way especially now in my new busy life. Since I’ve became an instructor there are so many opportunities coming my way. At lasts! All that I’ve always desired for and all the things I’ve always enjoyed are now coming true. My Birthday is in a few weeks time and I’m looking forward to it but the problem is I won’t be in town. I’ll be in Malaysia organizing an expedition. I’m looking forward for a lot of people wishing me for my birthday. Not hoping for presents but more to people wishing me. It’s a big thing for me cos I rarely get wishes. It’s like a day forgotten by many. I guess they’re to busy preparing for New Year. So I have my expedition, my birthday and my license. Then next year will be my attachment followed by getting a bike, then going for a diving course then going to Karimun then to THAILAND! That’s the plan for now.